We have a 2 year old, but we should also have a 5 year old and a 4 year old. We would've been 21 weeks pregnant today. On this "remembrance" day, I think of the fact I have far more angel babies than real ones. I wonder why we were chosen to bear this grief in our lives...always wondering what went wrong, and why. We should have a houseful of babies, and we have just the one. Don't get me wrong...our one princess is a beautiful, wonderful miracle, but the "what could be" still lingers every day...especially today, on a day MEANT to bring up the memories.
I know that my babies are up in Heaven, and will be waiting for me when my time comes. I can't wait to hold them, and let them know that even thought we never got to meet, they have always been my babies and always have and always will hold a very special place in my heart.
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- charleesmommy
- SAHM to a beautiful, wonderful, miracle princess named Charlee Jean. Married to my high school sweetheart for over 6 years now, and expecting another miracle baby in October 2011
Due to this imperfect life, we have to deal with physical conditions, etc. that may affect our abilities to have children. I don't think that God picked you and John out specifically to lose children....that is just an unfortunate part of this imperfect world and life we live. I believe that God hurts with you and I know that he knows every tear you have cried and all of your heartache and He is there to give you strength, comfort, and peace that you could not have otherwise. Through medicine and doctors (although some are frustrating, I know) I know that you will be parents again one day. And because of Him...you are given the opportunity to spend an eternity with ALL of your children. Praying for you always!
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